...Quiet as a lion's roar

• 2012-01-18

  She asked me yesterday if I missed you. 

  I didn’t know how to answer.

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  Today, I put on my iPod while I was working out, and put it on shuffle. For some reason, every song made me think about you. My heart still hurts. They say that time heals all wounds, but how do you heal a wound that seems to be ripped open again every single day? 

  I pretend like everything is good; as if life has moved on without you. But whenever I have too much time to myself, I realize that I’m nothing if not lonely. I am lonely without you. I hate you. I love you. I can’t live without you. It’s not possible for me to live with you. So many problems, but never any answers. So many contradictions. My heart hurts. My eyes cry. My mouth smiles. 

  I just want you to acknowledge me. Tell me that you were thinking of me. Give me a reason to remember what it felt like to be happy. Remind me of that brief moment in time where I felt like if the world would end the next day, I could die a happy man because I had you in my life. 

  You are my Hurricane of Love. You came, blew everything off of its foundation, and left just as fast, leaving nothing but destruction and pain. But I would build it all back up again, if only I could have you blow into my life again. Destroy me again, so I could be happy once more. I beg of you. 

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